Appreciation

Some days it happens. Especially when you’ve been trudging for a while. It happens. You get a day where you just love Jesus. Where nothing has worked out but you’re grateful anyway. Where life may be hard but your heart is blessed anyway. Where the burdens don’t hurt quite that much because your soul feels lighter. It just happens. And you sit back and marvel at what Christ has done in your life. It doesn’t matter that others can’t see a change in your circumstance because the change has been inside…an inner shift….the moving away from a negative thought pattern….the grateful that replaces the pity….the forgiveness that was finally meant because you realized it wasn’t important to hold it anymore… The opening of the hands a little more than yesterday….the acknowledgement that God has not forgotten you….the gentle reminder that life goes on anyway and beauty is still there even if its understated….these minute shifts that fill a heart that yearns for her Maker. And it just sorta happens. And you can take that deep breath and surrender even the hard bits. Life is beautiful once again….and it would not have happened had I given up a day a month a year ago. It’s two feet that have realized they are stable enough on their own and they don’t need to limp or drag anymore. It’s when the valley was your home and you reached the sunrise without even realizing that you had gained altitude. And its the knowing beyond a doubt that’s God’s hand is still beneath you….maybe it always was? And it just happens. And how the gratitude grows with each stronger breath and each surer step. And yet the outside is still the same. It’s like a secret between Abba and me. I good secret. A blessed secret. I’m grateful. And it just sorta happened. It’s like summer arrived at the moment you thought winter would last forever ?